想哭

Well, once again i’m all emo about army…

I think the reason is because many are going to POP and leave the Island of Tekong while poor Bingliang is going to be stuck in the Tekong island for another 3months, going through stuffs tougher than stuffs went through in the past 3months. And the feeling just suck big time. Knowing that people will be leaving while i’m stucked in a shithole!

Somehow, sometimes i wished that i was a girl, so i dont need to serve army and be free, to carry with Uni life and stuffs.

I keep telling myself that Army is just a stepping stone in life that will be over soon, just endure and it would be gone soon. But this stepping stone seems so huge, i can never finish stepping it.

Tekong is actually quite pretty. With all the beautiful sunset, sunrise, high tides, low tides. Tekong is really a beautiful. When it rains, it gets all nice and feeling. When it’s cloudy, the clouds form really nice patterns on the sky. Sometime, it’s really fluffy, sometimes, it’s really blue. In such a beautiful place, i’m actually doing stuffs i dont really like. Somehow the only thing i can do is to embrace, concentrate on the pretty stuffs instead of dwelling on ugly stuffs.

In life, there are many things that aint within our control, serving army is one! We just have to EMBRACE IT!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Dun worry about me, i just need a aveneue to vent out my feelings. I will be fine! The optimistic Bingie is still around, it’s just that the emo-wave has hit him again. The thought about having to book in for another 4-5days just brings in the emo-ness and the book out for like 1-2 days isnt enough for the freedom-lover Bingie. How can a Freedom-loving Sagittarius Bingie be trapped without any freedom?

Tough times dont last, but tough man do.

But what if the going-to-be-tough man surrenders before the tough times ends?

i promise i will give my best and embrace! Breathe! Smile!

想哭 … …

 

Council Chalet

Been missing for a few days due to Council Chalet.

 Tuesday. It was NYJC’s prom night, i didnt attend it but went for the post prom party @ The Arena, Clarke Quay. Didnt really enjoy it, because the music were’nt really great and it was really packed, with music blasting into your ears! Drank our drinks and went out to sit sit. Like most people would say, sitting outside really beats sitting inside. We get to see people drunk acting crazily, vomitting, sprouting nonsense and trying to start a fight. Love it when the bouncers stop those crazy drunkens! HAHAHA.  Went home on the first train of day! Reached and felt asleep at about 7.

Wednesday. Slept till 1plus in the afternoon because i was really tired and was late in meeting the councillors for the chalet. And it was also raining heavily like no one’s business. I ended up reaching the chalet @ 6.30! HAHAHA! Played mahjong and dai dee throughout the night and lost 10 bucks. Wanted to sleep but there was no space available for us to sleep! So we chatted till the morning and went to see our dearest Sebastian off into the army together with the rest!

Sebastian was the first amongst the council guys to be enlisted into army! Being so near Pasir Ris interchange, we decided to be sweet, to go down as a council to see him off. Went to see him off! Wah! Damn feeling can? All the feelings started to flood in. Then i started to imagine myself in his position, visualising all the stuffs. Damn exciting! HAHAHA. soon it’s my turn =[

After sending off, we were off to breakfast and shopping for the night's BBQ.Backed at the chalet, i bathed and went for a short nap. Prepared for BBQ and it was the start of the BBQ~ Had fun BBQ-ing and eating!

After the BBQ, it was the inter-jc mahjong session with IJCians. NY versus IJ! LOL!  i just any-o-how suggested it and it actually came true! HAHA! i did not played but went down to watch and support because i'm like the organizer can?!?! WAH! Luckily, i did not play because they played very fast, faster than how we usually play. Plain watching i could feel the deep tension and stress! VERY EXCITING! In the end, we won! Yeahness! HAHAHA.

Friday. Went for breakfast and it was home sweet home. Slept like no one's bussiness until our gambling ghost aka gary song called @ 8pm.

 "Hello! Eh, sleeping just now ar?"

"Ya"

" When you enlisting ar? Next week is it?"

"Ya, then we must play next week before you enter into army!"

"Yesyes!

 HAHA! How anxious can gary song get? LOL!

And coming to think of it, i'm going enlist into armynext friday! Offically 6 more days to be enlisted! 6 more days of freedom only!  AHHH!!!

A lot of people have been asking me about my feelings. Then i would always say " nothing much, enjoy first"

Really, that's how i'm feeling now. I'm not really bothered about enlistment into army cos worrying cant do much about the fact of enlistment! If worrying can do wonders, i would surely worry my ass off! =] So, now all i can do is to enjoy and have as much fun as possible!

Despite being fearful of NS, actually now i’m really really embracing it! We have always hear of this phrase ” If you cant beat them, join them!” Now, since i cant escape NS, i will just have to accept it! Embrace it!

I’m really treating it as a chance for me to slim down a little, be healthier, learn to adopt a healthy lifestyle and stuffs! So that i can fully enjoy my days after NS, in Uni. =]

Through NS may be tough and scary but i always think that, no wonder what diffculities comes our ways, we just have to grit our teeth and bear with it, telling ourselves to press on! and soon it will be over and we would emerge stronger! =]

So, should i cut my hair before i enlist or what? Big big question on my mind.

 Breathe! Embrace!